About Me! (AJ style)

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 14:57:48 GMT

how much does it cost to start a restaurant in singapore? i wonder... been dreaming...

scents

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 15:55:50 GMT

Over the weekend, i was being a good boy and stayed home. But bad boy coz i din study....

Anyway on sunday, i packed my room. i thought it was too darn messy to be living in comfort. and i was paking my cupboard and found many cologne samples.

One of which is Issey Miyake's L'Eau Bleue D'Issey. This scent reminded me of someone i used to date: H. H wears this cologne. Even though my time with him was a short one, but i catn help but have some memories coming back to me when i had smelt that again. This relationship was short-lived and probably, not meant to be. The thoughts tat came back, none was about how things could be if we din end it. I had totally moved on.

I also remember telling my ex D that my 21st birthday, i had asked for Clinque's Happy. He wore that so whenever i smell that cologne, i will b reminded of him. But i have to say, it's my kind of scent, or i could have grown accustomed to it. oh well..

ANYWAY, i miss songkhran!! was there in 2005. and by planning AHEAD, the next time i can go is in 2009! so long....... i also wanna go hongkong for the summer........ CRIES!!

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 15:35:29 GMT

was watching "The Dance Floor" on ch 5 today. only managed to catch the last 3 teams in the line up dancing. and i have to say Soul Fusion is really good. Well from wat was said, it was their style of dancing. My eyes were kinda glued to the only guy in the group. he looks gay. and i saw someone in the audience supporting that group which i recognise. cant rmbr his name.. coz m not acquainted with him, but he is urbankid's tall frd? Anyway, that dancer is damn good la! and also cute. i guess...... he is? hmmm...

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 18:06:16 GMT

gosh.. how i wish i can go songkhran.. hah..

anyway, it's the time of the year again. but this yr, i want to do something different. the past 2 yrs have been chalets to celebrate my day. this yr, i shall do wat a frd's msn said. that on ur birthday, remember the lady in the kitchen (and FYI, it's ur mother).

after appreciating tat statement, i agree with it. all so often we forget about the woman tat gave birth to us. they slogged it out in order to allow us to see light. all that huffing and puffing. all those sweat on her forehead. screaming her way through. NOT forgetting the whole 9months of pregnancy!

ya.. so will be spending some time with the lady who gave me life.

hugs..

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 06:09:21 GMT

i dun feel like going to sch to study!! and i have a prelim paper tmr. sigh... why? dunno. feeling lethargic. din sleep enuf, coz i woke up thinking it mite have been 10+ 11am. sometimes my body clock is screwed up and i end up sleeping till that time. so i was somewat rudely shocked, but when i turned on my hp, it's only 8+. sianzz...

so i turned on my com after a while.. and checked my stuff.. and came across these videos, which came as a recommendation from a frd a few nights ago. so decided to watch it.. the show is 不后悔 (a korean aj movie).

i was not able to embed it here due to unknown reasons.

Part 1
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/BuTDPISd5Zw/

from there, link from part 1 to part 6.

enjoy.. i think this show is damn touching!!

Guys enjoy dreamgirls!

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 16:42:12 GMT

gosh.. had seen dreamgirls with him on saturday. and i have to say, i truly enjoyed the movie. so nice!! the songs are great! thou i wanted to compare this movie to Chicago (both movies are broadway productions b4 they became movies), but they are somewat in different leagues.

But oh my.. jennifer hudson! she was my favourite american idol contestant that season! when she was in the bottom 3, i was hoping for either Fantasia or Latoya to b out. She gave the best performance the wk b4 that. From the best the wk b4 to the worst the following wk, wat a drastic drop!

Anyway, the performance for me that won my appalaud was "And i am telling you"

here's the clip from youtube.. so nice ;)

And Beyonce had her moment. When the oscars were on, i haven seen Dreamgirls yet. and i thot "wow. she sang so well. and so passionate! and she was wonderful!"

here's the clip from the show (finally found the embedded version)

and lastly.. it's the performance at the oscars! Wat a movie.. and i suspect, One Night Only will be the lastest dance song to be added to george's playlist!

enjoy the show! like i did with my guy!

looking back @ 2006

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 08:14:30 GMT

the title of this entry is looking back @ 2006. i have to say, there were many milestones this year.. (in order to recall the things that happened, i will try to think of them in months)

January
-Chris birthday on the 1st!
*nothing i can remember but maybe trouble with writing the date. so used to writing '05 and had to change to '06. i foresee the same problem next month!

Feburary
-V day. had to spend it alone coz chris was in NZ for work. or is it the states? hmmm..

March
-Moi's birthday @ chalet. many of u guys came down. thanks for that. alot of mossies. yucky. many pressies.
-race. packed our bags after one day of race. really disappointing. but only our 2nd race ever.

April
-prep for the exams.
-yongmin's birthday

May
-exams...... (eventually got the highest mark out of my team mates for one of the subject. the rest, slightly below average)

June
-vacation. was supposed to go for my backpacking trip after the exams with yongmin. but his granny was admitted to hospital. so we cancelled our backpacking trip. instead, chris n i went to cambodia: Siem Reap and Phnom Penh. good trip as i managed to cover 2 cities which i have not been too. disappointed tat i couldnt backpack thru vietnam
-intensive trainings.

July
-race. din pack our bags on the 1st day. had a major incident which could have resulted in a 1st in the heats. another boat got 1st in their heats. eventually they ended the finals in 4th. tough fight but a good showing. gota bronze. my 1st medal ever
-started drifting apart from chris. someone came into the picture. cracks became splits.
-chalet with my mates. uniform party. had ALOT of fun

August
-sch starts. for one subject.
-ended officially with chris. he was so cool on the outside but broke on the inside.
-recruitment for the new intake. alot of people signed up. the rate of renewal is on track.

September
-sch starts officially.

October
-participated in the New Balance Real Run. my 1st ever 10km run. managed to finish it with 2 blisters on my ankle. ankle socks n sand doesnt go well with skin. hah.
-signed up for the standard chartered marathon. 42.195 or 21km? tough choice. peer pressured into the 42.195km!
-tough trainings for the race ahead. trainings intensified till 4 times a week

November
-tough trainings continued for the 1 week prior to race.
-met Dar during this week of intense training. he's my lucky charm. (see below)
-race again. one cycle completed. we came with a vengence. din want to club on the 1st night. we fought hard, got into 3 semi finals, 1 plate finals and one grand finals. my 1st piece of silver! WooHoo!

December
-Standard Chartered Marathon. all 42.195km of it. all thanks to James who ran with me the whole time. without him, i couldnt finish it. Once it had passed the 10km mark, any more distance, would mark the longest i have ever ran.
-Penang Pesta. enjoyed the trip totally. thou there had been some unhappy incident. won myself a bronze. good memories with a bunch of good friends.
-pageant. disappointed tat i din win it. oh well..
-xmas with my dar. totally wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 15:43:51 GMT

My whole day was spent with my dar at home. Today is a saturday and yet my mum is out at work. that presents a good opportunity for us to juz laze at home (and also without the hassle of thinking of wat to do).

it was great. we could juz lie in bed, do nothing but watch tv. he helped me pack my room and i went to wash my shoes (after many months of runs, leading up to Regatta). prep our own lunch n dinner. and be happy.. haha..

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 01:48:42 GMT

i got a medal at regatta!!!! Silver in the Grand finals of the mens open.

and i have someone whom i love. 2 gifts within this month.. wat more can i ask for?.. other than forever..

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 03:15:10 GMT

i'm in pain!! one of my eye lid is swollen. it's said tat u will get that if u peep at someone showering? my eyes are already so small and now, the right eye can only be half opened. quite annoying. sigh..

other than tat, trainings are constant. 4 times a week. 2 more weeks till race day. it's happening on the 11-12 Nov @ Boat Quay.

Alot of my time is spent in my team. part of my time is spent in class. some of my time is spent with him. and wat's left? not much time for my studies. i need more time to study. i dun want to wait till it's too late b4 i regret. oh well..

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 03:15:13 GMT

I feel terrible yesterday!

1) had training yesterday. it sux to cringe even b4 leaving my house, dreading every aspect of it. thou sat's training was quite a good one, but sunday turns out to b otherwise. morale was low. strength was non-existence. the boat was sluggish. nothing i was happy about. after training went for food. had walked ard suntec for a while. NO ENERGY to walk also. sigh..

2) had made a choice. it was a wrong choice. and the problem was that i din say it in a way which is simple. and i eventually caused hurt to someone dear to me. spent the whole nite feeling anguish. i felt so guilty. so annoyed at myself. for not having him on a higher level of priority. i made him interchangebly with my frds/family/db and other stuff. thinking back, i think i mite have done tat to C too.. but this time, he said it to me, and i was feeling damn lousy about myself. m i ready to b with someone? wat i did yesterday was really not forgiveable. i do hope he does forgive me.

sigh.. lousy weekend. lousy me!

the object of desire..

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 07:00:56 GMT

i couldnt think of a subject and hence i said tat.

juz came back from the airport after sending someone off.. to taiwan. thou a short trip, my heart started missing him when i couldnt see him anymore beyond that immigration point.

Read more of wat i have to say

quite a whirlwind for me since last week. things happened, things progressed and i'm happily missing someone. or actually not so happy la. but at least his voice is with me.

little could i imagine myself falling for this someone. but i sure have. are virgos and piscean a perfect match? his mum is a virgo and his dad, a piscean. his mum's bday is 2 days before his. his dad's bday is 2 days after mine.

the first nite after i had gone home after meeting him, i went online to read up on our compatability in terms of horoscope. does sound like we are completely opposite but yet, it's a good thing. my only fear, i dont want this passion to die. thou i am only 22yo, i have seen much in this circle, wat this circle has to offer. once chris mentioned that he knows tat it would be a fact tat i will want to leave him to explore the world. as there are still many things that i have not seen. yesterday, he told me that he wants someone independent: financially, mentally and so on... my mood sank for a while coz i am definitely not financially stable. but he assured me that we can work thru things. there are too many things about this whole deal btw us that is more important. and he knows that there will come one day when i will graduate from sch, step out into the world and start working my ass off in this rat race. then, i could be too tied up with work and hence not able to offer him the same stability i can offer now. oh well.. those are problems of the future. i do hope that we can reach that stage in life, to be at that point, to think of solutions to these problems of life.

we caught a movie yesterday after my training : The Departed. heard from some friends (whom i happened to bump into, in the cinema itself, after the movie has ended) that it's the adapted version of 无间道. which so happened to be showing on ch u last nite. both versions deserve much credits i say. actors in both flick are doing the best they can and we, the audience were rewarded. anyway, he told me to keep ALL the ticket stubs from then on, of all the movies we will watch. wat a promise that is. More movies to come.

And so, i will try to squeeze all my creative juices and make a scrap book, of feelings, of first times... of movie stubs, of pictures.

So my summary of last week: had sch, had some problems with a team mate, but i think we settled it amicably, tough trainings and MORE to come (till 12 december.. sigh. still got so long till the race!! 4 trainings a week is no joke), had a haircut, movie.

and here is a song which is newly released in taiwan. but i only managed to dl the piano version. quite nice too.. when i managed to get the mp3, will send it to u guys. my song of the moment : I Love You 你懂不懂

http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=8273D0CE62C3AC34

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 10:50:28 GMT

juz a brief thought:

someone told me recently. u must do things that add value to your life.

keep that in mind... i shall evaluate mine too..

it's gonna be a long post.. read it u want..

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 13:49:31 GMT

today i feel sick.. everytime i get a surprise (eg. like not seeing someone walking ard the corner or stunned at smth), my head feels like it had been shook. oh well.. will sleep early tonight again..

BUT my post today is a series statements regarding me understanding myself and a few questions for those reading.

Being in a rship. i had been in some b4. C, J, D.. period: 1yr, half yr, 2 months. back in the past, i remembered gary once told me something about being in a rship. there r certain period of time tat one needs to be aware of: 3mths, 6 mths, 9mths and 1 yr.. especially in the 1st yr.

with my rship with C, i can really understand the ups n downs of this cycle. but i want to know how do u all stay focus, still continue being in love? one year on.. things might have been juz normal. nothing seriously exciting. movies, sleep overs, dinners, leisure shopping, vacations.. only vacation out of the options above sounds a little interesting..

Ever since C, i have kinda gone out to know people yet again. back when i was with him, i only knew a small number of people, making frds with a few only. i think my contacts have grown. due to irc, trevvy and clubbing (not say i club tat much ya. only 3-4times since i'm officially single).

My bro once did this in singapore. He and his loved one went to walk ard singapore, taking pictures of things that they see, seeing singapore in a different light. i want to do tat with someone too.. someone whom i enjoy company with. there was this someone whom i can imagine myself doing so. we chatted quite well over the phone. but when i met him, he suddenly became quiet. he looks not tat fantastic. we met up for dinner once and i din mind letting us get to know each other better. he went for a trip shortly after tat dinner. during that trip, it was quite a low period for me. i was feeling rather lonely. things werent tat rosy after he came back. i was a recovering "negativist" and i was a little shocked when he msged me on monday on msn to tell me tat he is back. coz i only expected him to be back on thurs. so he took it negatively as that i dun even care that he is back. so ya. tried to contact him but had some misunderstanding. oh well.. he sounded like he knew me so well. on the phone, when we 1st started chatting, he was able to give a relatively exact description of my personality. By him doing that, i gave him a chance. thinking that wat i would need is someone who truly understands me, who seems to be able to react to my feelings. but as for wat i'm feeling now? I'm disappointed!

so i continue on knowing others... and others.. and others..

i wanted to say that with my past experiences, with C, i have kinda gotten used to that type of lifestyle, having no worries about where we are going to have our next meal, that vacations are a possibility whenever there is a good deal in plane tics, that shopping (thou not often) if i really liked it, i can get it. the feeling is that he is the provider while i am the receiver, that he take cares of the bread while i bother about the house. in some sense, he the husband and i the wife. I tried to date younger guys. but i have discarded that idea..

wonders how life will be like for me from now on....

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 04:33:58 GMT

i have no idea wat in my journal entries recently which suggested that i am seeing someone. wat a wrong perception.

m i lonely? gosh yes. am i alone? i guess not. i have friends. things i need to remember. but how many friends i have? not many. yes some of u guys i will regard as frds but i think frdship has many layers. people i go out to enjoy ourselves, people whom i can confide in, people i talk to often enuf. by that definition, most of my frds are of the last option. anyway, i dun want to sound sad talking about that.

2 diff ppl asked me last nite if i did hook up with anyone last nite at attica. when one is not enjoying himself, and witht he dancefloor being so darn crowded, not easy. but i was not in the best mood. so many disgusting people dancing on the dancefloor, pushing their way.

i have so much i want to rant about last nite. so much i want to rant about my life. i am definitely not happy about my life.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 08:42:21 GMT

today's thought: when you know someone new, there could be alot to talk about initially. does it mean i like you? well... it could mean that we have alot of things to discover about each other. can i say i fancy you? yes it could. i fancy you to want to know you better. does it mean i want to be with you forever? i wonder...

everytime when i get to know someone new, if that person is eloquent and is willing to let go of himself to immerse in a conversation, we could have a wonderful chat. but also when u get to know someone new, the 1st conversation could offer u an insight to whether do you guys have chemistry. sometimes, yes, but most of the time, no. there are juz not so many good conversationalists these days. and i will not say tat i am one. coz if i am one, when one talks to another person whom u know u cant click, i think the good conversationalist (or journalist for that matter) is able to make conversations with the other. but i am not able to do so.

and i had a 2 hr conversation earlier on with someone. recently, i have been able to converse on these levels with them. but he made one point which i agree.. i am more of a listener than a talker. hmmm.. why so? why is it so hard for me to share my life with others? actually no it's not difficult but why is there so few things i can say about my life whereas others can juz go on n on n on?

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 15:52:44 GMT

does anyone know how to mix midori? wat mixer is good with it? heh..

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 14:44:03 GMT

been wanting to update my LJ for a while.. but whenever i wanted to update, it's too late or i had forgetten wat i wanted to say.

well.. life for me these days, been quite alright. sch juz started for me on tues.

(actually these were written on tuesday) But today i want to review my love life/history and wat's instored for me.

Ever since i am officially single, i have met up with quite a few guys. (my bro can attest to that.. hahah). m i sure of wat i want? i guess i can say tat. but have i found wat i like? i dun think so. but i do enjoy the process of getting to know new guys. getting to know more about their lives. but many a times, they feel a little insecure being with me. but i'm seriously not as "popularly liked" as they would like to think....

Anyway, TODAY (14/09) i challenged myself. i ran approx 10km in an hr. was so proud of myself. i am easily satisfied with myself.

Jon is barely a sportsman. barely into running. becoz of the sports i am doin these days tat days, i am slowly becoming a sportsman. the transformation starts with me doing my new balance real run. it made me realise how enjoyable the run was. after tat, i took on a new appreciation for running. and have signed up for the 42.195km standard chartered marathon. gosh.. actually after today's run, i kinda m freaking out for the run. 10km did take a bit out of me. perspired SOOOOOOOOOOO much. haha..

well.. let me have a new appreciation of my sport again. heh

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 07:22:57 GMT

ripped this off matt_inamorato

it's damn funny

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 15:23:47 GMT

i wan........

- mooncakes. esp durian mooncakes. but since leaving someone, i will get lesser of these
- ipod. i need music in my life
- to organise my life.. need to slot in trainings for the SG marathon
- people who are serious in getting to know me
- . . .

update it soon

lonely.. i'm so lonely..

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 05:22:24 GMT

YES i shldnt be saying that. Jon is neva lonely as he has friends.

can i be forgiven if i want hugs? a sense of security? a sense of touch? a sense of love? esp after that dream of mine.. how much i crave for hugs. virtual hugs? i think i can do without them. was telling someone online that i am a touchy person. i guess tat is why i think i want physical hugs. someone whom i can lie in his chest, hearing his heartbeat, feeling his arms ard me.

Whenever i feel that way, i think to myself. this situation does make me feel very passive. thou i'm very much a mixture of both active and passive. thou i wan to be active in my next rship, i still crave for a hug from someone tall and big size. sorry but i wan to feel small.. i wan to be like a baby. this is a human's instinct. babies when they are held by their parents, wont cry. coz they feel secure and familiar. not making sense anymore...............................

my heart aches.. it really does..

bad dreams bad sleep... BAD

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 03:00:53 GMT

last nite, i slept at 2 am. wat are the times i woke up: 5am, 8am and 10am.

had such a terrible sleep. i rarely have problems sleeping properly. but i know i had 2 different dreams last nite.

dream 1: i remember it was kinda like in orchard mrt station underpass towards ck tang. was with a bunch of team mates and we were supposed to present this singer among us. i told everyone to circle him, let him sing, let ppl encircle us then we start leaving. but there r some ppl who din bother and walked off. i was disheartened and i too had walked towards orchard mrt station. then saw a few friends sitting ard. joined them and one of them passed me some "kee-nua bu-a-no" chocolate (dunno how to spell la).. and then i started eating. but here's the weird part. there was 7 of us there. 3 pairs of guys and me. the 3 pairs of guys started feeding each other. i felt so lonely, i started running and after the gate, it was a grass patch. i kneel down n cried for a short while. and then i woke up crying. sigh..

dream 2: i remember being in a chalet. it was a continuing dream i think. anyway it was quite a weird chalet. VERY big. haha.. and there was this aquarium somewhere nearby. have to walk past it in order to get anywhere. the weird part is, outside it, it hung a fish. mayb not a fish but a seal. a creature big enuf to be abt 1.75m long. coz it's about my eye level. and it's alive. in front of it hung a frog. i asked the owner why is she doing tat. she said it's to make it more angry as it has become passive and toned down. haha.. then 2nd time walking past it, i saw 2 hanging outside her shop. then one of them tried to bite me. but i darted away and it ate the frog and gotten lose. it jumped up onto the roof and was chasing after me. saw the owner and was now under a HDB block. but the roof of the aquarium and it's surroundings was like that of some shabby place with those blue construction canvass sheets linking these short buildings together. the blue canvass sheets are to like act as covered walkways btw buildings. then i woke up without being eaten alive. hurray. hah. but it's still traumatising.

wat warpped dreams i have.. and tat sets the mood for the day. wat a lousy mood...

quite a fun weekend for me..

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 15:47:51 GMT

other than thurs!

anyway, on fri, i had quite a day. slept really late on thurs and woke up with quite an eye bag prob. wore shades everywhere i went. so i met my bro and his faghag (hahah..) for lunch at city hall area. walked all the way to suntec city's foodcourt for lunch. while walking, was sharing with him those bits of my lives that he is too bz to know. well.. maybe when sch starts for me and when life steadies down for him, then we can hang out more.
so after lunch, we walked over to our favourite place, V TEA ROOM in esplanade. My favourite cafe around. Next to max brenners. i tell ya.. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS CAFE. u can juz say my name and they will know who.. erm.. mayb with some slight description. Jon is a common name mah. was shag by the previous day and was low energy level the whole day. V tea room (VTR) is having their 3rd anniversary celebration and they are having a competition for the best design card for their scrap book. so my idea was to design it by putting down ALL the things we have ever tried in their cafe. they r shocked at the number of things we have tried since then. but dunno how to draw properly la. so didnt. haha.
so after VTR, we left as my bro got dinner appt. for me, i had to go home to change in my best attire to go clubbing with my team. we went to DBL O for the RnB nite. i can truly say it was the most enjoyable clubbing experience i have had. enjoyed the music alot, the company and alcohol. cheap alcohol (1 jug of whisky dry is only $12) and each shot is $3 and their shot glass is taller. company was great. had 2 other friends joining me: my bro's faghag n her frd. bought them some drinks then danced with them from dbl o to o bar. haha.. they are crazy women. haha. but i totally enjoyed clubbing with them and shaking my assets. haha. and rnb music is so fun. was telling all the girls in my team to dance like beyonce, shaking their bom boms and their chests like her. they r so not sporting. haha.. but my 2 frds are. haha. and i think i was the best male dancer in the group tat clubbed that nite. was gyrating with every girl in my team and i love tat. hahaha...

on saturday, i practically slept half the day away. only having my VERY 1st meal of the day at 4+pm. haha. had it at carls jr in marina sq. 1st time having it. it's expensive but i enjoyed my burger alot. (now.. craving for it.) met kor for that. then kor meeting his bf for blading. so sweet. heh. but bf was late. so was with him all the time. as i also had time to spare till my next meeting. so how interesting fate is. bf is late and late till it was juz nice for me to meet up my frds. heh.
so met up with this 2 friends. thou they know each other for about 6 months only, they have clicked well.. 默契很好. ya lo..

on sunday, woke up EARLY coz i'm heading to sentosa for the New Balance real run. very fun. 10km run, where it's 6km on road, 1.6km on sand and 2.4km on trail. but one thing i disliked abt the run is my shoes and socks. wore ankle socks n now i have 2 terrible abrasion bruises behind my ankles. u remember back in the days when u do ippt, do training, when u run, in order to motivate someone, u will say, take the person in front of u as ur target. so i was quite happy. everytime i run, i run past people coz they are slow. and i feel happy. easily, i could have over taken a few hundreds of people. heh... and i neva gave up. other than some parts of the beach run coz my ankles were bleeding already and so many ppl were walking. the St. John's people were SO UNHELPFUL when i asked for plaster. they very slow and so unprofessional. oh i wanted to send a complaint letter up. hmmm.. will do tat tmr.
then after tat went to meals at harbourfront and thereafter, training. training was quite bad. the boat no power. quite disappointing n low in morale. the boat is made up of a whole team of rowers. when the mood is not there, from someone, it can easily spread to others and hence, lousy mood thru'out the boat.

anyway, here i am. at the end of the weekend. i am happy for the things tat i've done for the past 3 days. with a high at DBL O and NB real run.. heh. if every weekend can be that exciting. haha

this is me... exposed

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 04:00:58 GMT

i'm only 22yo.. (pls do not take offence when i say tat) but i think i have experienced the AJ lifestyle through and through.

i may be still young in your eyes, esp to all of my friends over here but let us compare our AJ age. from the day you came out, from the day u started exposing urself to the AJ world (IRC, ICQ, Fridae, SGBOY, internet phone, netmeeting, face-pic, friendster... many aveunes to get to know ajs), i think i can be said to be older than some of u guys reading this.

Yes people say i look young, and people also commented i look older than my age (depends on my dressing and attitude that day). And they also had commented that i do look 'lao jiao' in the AJ scene. I have many acquaintances, i know many people thru my frequent clubbing trips in the past (BUT i'm not so atas to know those door bitches nor club owners nor those high society people). met many people online, over in the clubs, friends of friends, towel club...

things that i want to mention: i remember there was this period i was a jaded young boy. was sadden by the circle. i cant remember why but i was jaded. was it becoz i couldnt find love then? that the people i meet are not my type? maybe coz they have different agendas from me. seriously cant remember the reasons but many people tell me that i am still young and no need to be jaded at such an age. oh well.. i am me.

had a bit of time to reflect on my aj life recently. JON WHY R U SO LAZY?? yes i know there are things that i need to do to make my life fulfilling, but instead of doing it, i let time slip away, doing things tat are of no importance. oh well...

everyone has their dirty laundry. i have mine too. i told someone whom i thot i was seeing, that i have my past. this past is quite a long one, i mite add. almost half of my entire life. go figure. dun point ur finger and look at me in any other way. I AM JON. the jon you know, the jon who speaks his mind, the jon who enjoys the company of friends like you guys, the jon who is and will be there when u need him. the jon who loves his friends. if deep down inside, after reading this, u have formed another opinion of me, tell me. i will be glad to omit u in my life.

have i said alot today? do u think you know me? m i still worth knowing?

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 13:55:05 GMT

quite an enjoyable day i had. wat monday blues? hahaha... good choices today

anyway i met a team mate for blading at east coast park. she will be teaching me and another girl how to blade. My very 1st attempt at blading. am i excited?? hell ya. after thought, hell ya. haha..

thou i had fallen many times (actually not tat many times. mainly around humps), i still enjoyed it. i was more daring to try than the other girl. she was whinning all the time.. the 'instructor' she found that girl annoying. i was laughing all the way coz it's so interesting to blade. i'm a quick learner but i dont progress fast. hah. anyway, it is fun. i want to do it again...

so after blading, went to town for a movie. caught "click". very nice.. i will highly recommend it. instead of "hard candy". hah..